I’ve got lots of money, and I bought a lot of drugs on the deep web like Alphabay.The dark net made them easily available and I smoked all sorts of crap I hadn’t heard of before. I was high in job interviews, I was always high at work, then I developed Hppd and dp/dr. Now I can’t do drugs anymore, I lost all my hair, I lost my friends and my mom tried to kill herself.
Hallucinogen persisting perception disorder (HPPD) is a disorder characterized by a continual presence of sensory disturbances, most commonly visual, that are reminiscent of those generated by the use of hallucinogenic substances. Previous use of hallucinogens by the person is necessary, but not sufficient, for diagnosis of Hppd. For an individual to be diagnosed with Hppd, the symptoms cannot be due to another medical condition. Hppd is distinct from flashbacks by reason of its relative permanence; while flashbacks are transient, Hppd is persistent.
Hppd is when hallucinations in your vision persist in your normal life. Depersonalization and Deralization (DP/DR) is when you don’t feel like a real person and the world feels fake to you, as if I was in a perpetual dream.
LSD is one of the biggest causes of Hppd. From Hppd’s wiki page : “Drugs that have been associated with Hppd include DMT, LSD, 2C-E, 2C-I, 5-MeO-DiPT, MDA, MDMA, psilocybin, diphenhydramine, PCP, synthetic cannabis, and high doses of dextromethorphan.”
As with any substance, LSD use comes with various side effects. LSD addiction side effects largely depends on the individual’s personality and mood, the environment, and the amount used. However, side effects can also be distinguished by short-term and long-term use of the drug.
Hppd in most cases is minor and goes away in a few months. Dp/dr are actually symptoms of severe anxiety that some people can develop after heavy drug abuse. With normally psychedelic use it happens to very few people. We accept a lot of risk in life though so it’s not really any different. Psychedelics can show you the ways of love and happiness and I think everyone would benefit from the experience. Millions take psychedelics every year and very few develop hppd, even fewer have it persist longer than one year.
But not me. I am one of the unlucky few, and using drugs I bought from the deep web has destroyed me forever. Hppd can last many years even if you stay sober, exercise, eat well and all the good stuff. Some people have mental disorders or other problems that cause them to become overly sensitive and can’t handle it.
People think I am unhinged, I wander around in a daze, squinting at the world as if through a kaleidoscope. I am broken, I cannot go anywhere, I cannot do anything meaningful. I quit my job, moved back home with my parents, and I entered rehab. My search for a cure came up empty. There is no underlying medical condition, maybe the drugs were laced with something sinister. Weeks, months, years have gone by. And this trip just won’t end.